Well internet... Its been over a month and a lot has happened and changed. My procrastination with writing on my blog has significantly increased! But that's not what I mean...
I... am, officially a resident of Vancouver, Wa. My address is no longer the same one Ive had since I was 5. I finally dove off the dock, with the ever so amazing precision that I have, into the deep and very wide ocean that is awaiting to swallow me whole.
This is what I wanted for how long??? I was/am/will be ecSTATic about this!!!
The 'was', because when I got the call that I got the job at the YMCA in Vancouver, after using an insane amount of gas to drive back and forth trying to get the job, I was jumping outa my skin with joy! I did it! I got the job I was waiting for and I was finally able to go through with what I had been talking about for what seems to be forever. I was able to stop being that little boy who cried about that stupid wolf!
The 'am' because, with every bone in my body I am so happy that I have made it to this point.
The 'will be' because... I really hope that I can look back on this and be even happier than I am right now. Because in all honesty... theres more then just bones in my body, and not all of them are happy.
I got what I wanted right?! So whats the problem? Why do I just want to frantically swim towards the surface and claw my way back up to the dock and sit in my little spot that I have been so comfortable with?
Because its comfortable....
I feel almost like I am being way more dramatic than I have the right to be. People leave and move away from home all the time!! Its supposed to be easy! Or well, so I thought. I feel so silly sitting here feeling sorry for myself because I finally got what I wanted.
For the first time in my life, I wrote down another address today. My head is not wrapping around it. Port Angeles is not where I live anymore. My head is not wrapping around it. I didnt get to see and say "see ya later" to my best friend and give her a hug before I had to leave, and my head is just not wrapping around it!! There are so many things my head it trying to wrap around its giving itself seizers and Im not quite sure how to deal with it.
I wondered how long it would take me to realized that I have actually moved away... I mean seriously! Ive only been here not even two full days! I've barely had a chance to realize that I'm in the water! You know that feeling when you jump in the lake and its SO COLD you cant feel it right away because your body goes into shock? Im pretty sure thats me right now. I'm scared to experience what it feels like when that shock goes away.
But... internet... I have moved! I have a job and now my quest is to get "Kika's Photography" out there and make a name for myself!!! and I AM ecstatic and I CAN do this!!!!
Ker-Splash!
This is my nephew, David Schroeder. A little shout out to him... he's on the reality tv show Axemen on the History channel. He needed some head shots and I was happy to oblige. :)
So until next... please dont hold your breath! That might be a lil scary if I wait another month to post something! :)
