Have you ever had the feeling that you were living two completely different parallel lives at the same time??
Thats kinda how I am feeling in this time of my life. I am back in Port Angeles and I have my life here that I've always had. A best friend who I can't wait to see when I come back, the house I grew up in, people I've known my whole life and my favorite places ever with most of my favorite people all together in my small home town. Then I have my own lil apartment with all of my belongings, a new home church, two new jobs with awesome co-workers, new friends I've made and new favorite places to go and do things in, in a large city I now call home as well.
Going back and forth so much its like I'm living two completely separate lives. It's a very odd feeling. I wish so desperately that those two worlds can come together and live in harmony.
Before when I came home, PA was my only home. Now that I've been in Vancouver going on a year now, I call that home now too. I used to not be able to wait until I came up to PA, now I'm having a hard time staying for so long. I'm torn now between my two lives and I'm not enjoying that part of this life experience so far. I really hope this gets better but I'm not sure how it could. The only thing I see happening is not being attached as much to what used to be my only home. I guess thats what they call it being afraid of change.
I do admit that I hate change, but at the same time I embrace it because it builds you up and makes you a better person.
In high school, I hated that we had to graduate and go on and live a different life. Things were gonna change and I didnt want them too. I liked how things were.
I made a new best friend who had to go back to her home country thousands of miles away and I hated that she had to leave... things changed. I liked how things were.
My mom brought someone else into her life and I had to share her and things drastically changed and I absolutely hated it and fought tooth and nail. I liked how things were.
I moved and things changed. I liked how things were.
The problem is in the beginning of those last statements. "I liked how things were." "I"
Looking back on all of those moments that changed my life so much, I wouldn't have it any other way. High school is so much better looking back on it and only remembering the good times. I have a best friend who I wouldn't change for the world that I still get to talk to and see and we are even better friends now. For Good ;) As much as I hated it, and theres a part of me that still kind of does, I'm glad my mom is not alone. And moving is definitely one of the best things Ive done. I'm expanding my horizons.
You take the "I" from being the main subject in the sentence, and life is much better. You get a whole new prospective on things. God's perspective. You see how He has blessed you and always with you every change along the way.
I refer to life as a roller coaster. You dont know when the drops are, or how far down, but they go fast, and the up part is where you can breathe, relax and enjoy the view before you hit another drop. I've learned to just hang on and enjoy the ride. And if you're brave enough, throw your arms in the air and open your eyes on the drops. Who knows, you might even enjoy it and want to do it again! ... or not ;)
Last blog I posted about Jessica & Travis with Jessica's pictures. Now here are Travis's senior pictures.
Travis... you definitely have a kind heart and I love that you show that and how it shines through in your pictures! I also loved that you are into photography. If you need any pointers or have any questions, I am here to help! :)
(remember these photos are copyright to Kika's Photography. Please do not copy, crop, or change in any form. Thank you!)
Just thought I'd throw in a Black/White pic
